on stress

this past week, i have been feeling pretty antsy about everything. i am not really sure why, but something in the air has been setting me on edge. like a small, but steady pressure on my shoulders. i guess you could call it stress, but i cannot think of the cause. i thought i just needed a change of pace, but that has not really helped. it is very unusual for me to be too worried about anything for too long either. although, on a side note, a lot of people around me are pretty tense about all sorts of matters. work, school, business, relationships... maybe that stuff just lingers after they go.

i have always felt that if things are out of your control, it is pointless to worry. however, most people around me do not share this point of view. they fret and think and drive themselves crazy without taking a step in any direction. well... most. some people decide on something and then take steps to making it happen. they have my admiration. i sometimes wonder whether my patience is a sign of maturity or one of laziness. regardless, i am where i am because of myself, although it is way too easy to blame other people. i guess that is just something i will have to get over.

anyhow, i cannot seem to shake this foreboding feeling, so i guess time will tell. see you on the upside.