on reliability

i am a terrible friend. no question about it. unreliable, but surprisingly consistent. i am not really sure why i am so unreliable though. i wonder what sort of experiences cause someone to be reliable, and how i missed out on all those life lessons. but on the up side, i think i know where i fall into the world. see, i might not be there for this event or that event, but on the whole, i am always "around". while talking to one of my friends about this, he told me that he never worried if i was not around, because he was sure sooner or later, i would swing by or call and see if he wanted to eat. so in a round about way, i am reliable (as long as there is no deadline or expectation, otherwise, i suck).

unfortunately, the rest of the world cannot wait. so with work and school and pretty much every other aspect of life, i am terrible. bills? eh... homework? yeah... no. seriously folks, what grand lesson did i miss to turn out this way?